Transformation

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words

That you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

I stumbled over this song recently while running. It very accurately descibes where I am right now. Just broke up with someone who I had dated for six months.

As the song began to play and I really heard the words, I started to cry. Now, if you have never seen a grown man running, crying, nose running.....it is not a pretty sight. I'm sure several residents of Norcross were asking themselves "What the fuck?"

It is a difficult truth that we only have today. I have spent so much time worrying about the past and worrying about the future. It was a freeing thought that I only have to decide how to write today's page....minute by minute. The ironic truth is that although my ex is the one who helped me see this idea more clearly than I have seen it in the past, I was allowing him to write the script of my life and speak my words for me.

This song could only have meaning for me now...after the relationship had ended.